I try to post small Scarlette updates via twitter/facebook during the day until I have time to update her page. Everytime I log in, I look at the "current status" space and feel at a loss for words to type. What do I say if I'm honest? That I'm terrified we might be losing our daughter? That I'm sure I love and want her more than anyone in the entire world has ever loved or wanted anything? That I'm mostly numb to get through a day of medical terms and holding her hand and that when I let myself feel, I am completely broken in a way I could never describe in a novel, much less 140 characters.
Current status: I feel completely shattered, as though my entire heart is lying in a little plastic bed. This is wretchedly painful. I love her.
"He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted…and provide for those who grieve in Zion— to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of joy instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair." Isaiah 61
