Keeping it real on the blog today- I thought I'd give y'all something to laugh at after reading all my heavy emoting ;) This was taken on my third day in the hospital, after an incredible amount of drugs, vomitting and lack of bathing. It's really very flattering. I should probably … [Read more...] about Hospital Stories aka KA On Meds Is Funny
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Purposed
....the weight of glory, if you held it in your hands... "I need this to have a purpose" I cried to Jeff as I watched the outline of the hospital fade behind our tailights. It's always worse for me at night, frustrating and heartbreaking when I have to leave her. Other … [Read more...] about Purposed
weight
When they handed her to me, I was taken aback by how light she was. I couldn't feel her amongst all the bedding, it was as though someone had handed me a pillow. Sadness for her mingled with my tears of joy as the reality of how small she is really registered with me for the first time. I … [Read more...] about weight
60 Minutes Of Holding Scarlette
60 minutes. Today is December 7, exactly one month from the date of Scarlette's birth. 30 days have passed since I first laid eyes on my newborn baby. 30 days of gazing at her through a box of plastic. 30 days in which I was barely able to touch her. Today they handed me my daughter. Today I … [Read more...] about 60 Minutes Of Holding Scarlette
Naming Scarlette
"We just had a little boy named Rhett in here, one of the nurses told me conversationally, wouldn't that have just been something, to have them in a room together?" I nodded politely, hoping my face did not reflect my bewilderment. I had no idea what in the world she was talking … [Read more...] about Naming Scarlette
Right now
Scarlette Before Surgery She's such a beautiful, strong, tiny little girl. As a mother, I want so many things for Scarlette. I want who she is to be known and to be loved. She is my daughter, my love, and I want everyone to know how amazing she is. Right now, no one is even allowed to see her. … [Read more...] about Right now
