Hi everyone. My mom brought me a little laptop today so I could tell you that our Scarlette was born last night at 8:09pm. She weighs 1 pound and 9 ounces and she has lots of dark hair and is just beautiful.
We were hopeful for a few days that we'd be able to give her more time, then last night everything happened really quickly. They tried to stop labor again but it didn't work and progressed fast. Since she and I were both in distress they did an emergency c-section. They brought her to me because she was able to breathe on her own (yay!) and let her hold my finger for a second, which was amazing since they had prepared me that I wouldn't be able to see her at all. I'm so thankful for that tiny bit of time with my daughter.
At this moment she is stable and we are so grateful. They've told us it will be touch and go every hour and it's just agonizing to be in such a constant state of not knowing.
I'll share some photos of her soon when we have some of the early ones off the camera. I can't bear to post the NICU pics because they are just so hard to see. She's so tiny, she fits in her daddy's hands, which are copied exactly on her. She also has his feet but her little mouth looks like mine.
I wanted to say thank you so much for all of your love and prayers. It's given me such peace in some of the hardest moments of my life. I've never felt such an overwhelming sense of helplessness as I do right now. It's hard to see her so frail, it breaks my heart to have to be away from her so much, and I can't bear to not be able to do anything. I literally can't do anything except pray for her and pump milk for her so I'm just sitting here, pumping and praying in between visiting her little isolette and singing to her. I've never known this sort of pain. I covet your prayers for her and I could never, ever begin to tell you how I grateful I am to you for lifting up our little girl.
With our deepest gratitude,
Kayla Aimee and Jeff
