This Is What Hope Looks Like: Happy Homecoming Day!

homecoming

Two years ago today... We awoke to the sounds of a "drip drip drip" in the observation room, having spent the night on a pull out sofa next to an institutional-looking crib on wheels. It had been a night of little sleep as nurses bustled in and out to watch us be parents and put a crisp check mark next to the items on their list that we had to accomplish in order to take our daughter home. Her feeding tube pump had to be refilled multiple times during the night, heartbeat and breathing monitor wires adjusted and medications administered. I signed my name with a flourish to form after form after form as the techs installed our carseat and … [Read more...]

4.12.11 | Welcome Home, Scarlette

Today is April 12, 2011 On November 7, 2010 we welcomed a 1lb 9oz baby girl into the world. Today Scarlette is 5 months and 5 days old. Today we brought her home. Today, when we left the hospital, for the first time ever she came with us. Modern language lacks for the words to properly define the beauty of the way I feel today. I prayed for this child, and the LORD has granted me what I asked of him- 1 Samuel 1:27 P.S. I'll elaborate more later, we didn't know until this afternoon that we'd be getting to come home today, we'd packed for a longer stay at the hospital! We're thrilled! (from top left: Scarlette waiting for a … [Read more...]

Transition

Today we learned infant CPR. Important fact of the day: infant CPR dolls come with removable, interchangeable faces. Did you know that? And if you did not know that, are you now as creeped out as we were? We have a LOT more medical equipment than I expected and being trained on it is intense. I don't think the equipment people get my sense of humor. Like when they taught us to use the home monitor and I suggested they just make an app for that. The monitor guy did not take kindly to that suggestion. But seriously, Steve Jobs, call me. Posting will be light the next few days as we spend a lot every spare minute of time preparing for our … [Read more...]

Scarlette at 5 months | Rapunzel, Rapunzel

Scarlette is 5 months old today. We made cupcakes for the nurses to celebrate her "birthday." We also just love any excuse for cupcakes. Speaking of cupcakes, my friend Jody sent me this today and it was the proverbial icing on the them: After I read your last post, I announced to my kids that baby Scarlette is going to get to go home finally. Ava then said "you mean she never left the hospital yet...ever?" "No, she's been there since the day she got born- several months ago," I replied. Then without missing a beat Bella's face lit up and she said in an excited voice, "Oh! She's just like … [Read more...]

Things I Learned This Week | 4.5.11

- What spit up looks like. What reflux spit up looks like. What exorcist baby spit up looks like. - Apparently, Grey's Anatomy is a polarizing topic around here. - I have no tools or ladders or relatives tall enough to clean the fan in our family room. How do people clean really high ceilings fans? This is totally over my head <- pun completely intentional. Also, now I have The Fray in my head. - I can have caffeine again. Welcome back, beloved. - I gave Tiff's girls some of Scarlette's tiny diapers & clothes for their baby dolls. Maier named her baby doll Scarlick. Not because she can't say Scarlette. Just because she … [Read more...]

God hears Amen wherever we are and I love you

Godspeed, little girl, sweet dreams, little girl. Oh my love will fly to you each night on angels wings. Godspeed, sweet dreams. I sing this to Scarlette before I leave each night. She's a week shy of five months old and while it's so much better, I still cry every evening as I get on the elevator and leave her behind. But the nurses are no longer recommending anti-depressants to me every day so either my disposition has gotten sunnier or they were in bed with the pharmaceutical companies. I really love conspiracy theories so let's go with the latter. Geronimo. Our stupid blasted really cute dog has taken to whimpering at three o … [Read more...]

Love Keeps Growing More Love

I fell in love with you and that love became something newit added a name and it added a smile it keeps getting bigger every further mile love keeps growing more loveour vows they started breathing and they took on flesh and blood and we held them in our arms and tasted God was good-Caedmon's Call, Love Grows Love On Saturdays in March and April 2011, I am featuring the companies who have generously donated to Team Scarlette as our official March For Babies 2011 sponsors. We are so very grateful for their support. If you're looking for something unique, I hope you'll consider supporting these amazing indie businesses so CLICK … [Read more...]

Five For Friday | Which Seat Can I Take?

1) While eating lunch in the NICU waiting room, I was trying to catch up on emails. Trying being the operative word here. The guy across from me says to his wife "For all we know, she could be writing down every thing we are saying right now." Laughing, I assured him I wouldn't do that. And then I un-assured him as I remembered that I totally write down things that total strangers say and put them on the internet. I try to make friends with the other NICU parents but things like that make me think my approach isn't working so well. "Hi, want to be friends with me and have your life be fodder for people to read … [Read more...]

Thankfulness

I stumbled across this layout that I made almost 4 years ago. I hung it up and pulled out the Cd with this song on it to listen to on the drive to the hospital, the drive I'll be making for at least another month or more. The enormity of the act of thankfulness has been infusing itself into my life over the past several months. Because even in my worst of times, how can I not be thankful for this? For my sweet girl, who turns her head at the sound of my voice and whimpers until I lift her from the nurse's arms. For my baby, my only child, who lays her head against my chest and sighs as she snuggles in close to me. For this miracle of … [Read more...]

Scarlette's Room | Sneak Peek

For the past few weekends we've been spending Saturday working on Scarlette's room and bathroom and then going to the hopsital at night for bathtime/storytime/bedtime. I wanted to share a peek at the progress with you. It just needs some finishing touches and...a crib, lol. It's kind of hard to tell but three of the walls are a very pale pink. That was the previous color of the room when it used to be my scrapbooking space. Let me tell you how the bright pink wall came about. Scarlette had just been born and Jeff rushed over to see her. Then he came back and was holding my hand and showing me the photos he took of her. At this … [Read more...]