Remember when I wrote a whole book and totally put IN PRINT that we were definitely, absolutely, all done having kids?
SURPRISE!
We’re having a baby!
We’re not quite sure how that happened, exactly, what with my history of infertility and our multiple methods of preventing and all.
(That’s right, I said methods as in PLURAL.)
(Basically, this is what it looked like when we found out. Except we’re both Ross in this scenario.)
And I have been absent for quite some time since finding out because let me just tell you how this pregnancy is going so far:
I, like my BFF Princess Kate, tend to get debilitating morning sickness during my pregnancies and this time has been no exception. I have Hyperemesis Gravidarium again, as well as vertigo which means looking at any sort of screen makes me swim with nausea. I’m just staring at blank walls over here, y’all. I threw up thirteen times yesterday. THIRTEEN. I realize that is TMI but I don’t even care because I’m typing this from my new bed on the bathroom floor. I’m basically being kept sedated at this point and that’s not an exaggeration.
I am twelve weeks along and earlier this week I experienced some really intense bleeding. And that’s when we learned that I have Placenta Previa.
I’m not even going to lie, after being relieved at hearing the baby was still fine and healthy I was like “I HAVE ENOUGH TO WORRY ABOUT ALREADY WITH THIS PREGNANCY, PLACENTA. GET IT TOGETHER IN THERE.”
I am grateful for the unexpected blessing of a new life growing within me but after having one baby at 25 weeks, I’m also pretty scared. I’m seeing a great team of high-risk specialists and am trying to be hopeful about having a better outcome with this pregnancy.
But it’s been a lot to process.
I’ve been gathering encouragement from Nichole Nordeman’s new song Unmaking, specifically the line that says
I’ll gather the same stones where everything came crashing down
I’ll build You an altar there, on the same ground
And that is where I am today.
Building an altar stone by stone.
Resting and hoping.
And raising one extraordinarily excited big sister ♥
(P.S. If I owe you something, an email or a package, I am slowly working my way through it. Everything is almost mailed out but the inbox is a whole other story. Thank you for your grace during this season of unexpected delays.)
P.S. If you want to celebrate with us, Amazon has my new book, Anchored, on sale for 99cents today! I’m celebrating this baby AND that Anchored has almost ALL 5 star reviews – 101 of them! A great number for both reviews AND Dalmations 😉 I hope you’ll pick up a copy for yourself or for a friend here!
